It is so hard to move forward and to be completely happy after divorcing a narcissistic spouse when there are children involved. No matter how hard you try, how much therapy or how positive you try to be. They break you down, they find your weak spot and hold you hostage. You try to stay optimistic and not let them get to you, but your children are your weakness. They were able to victimize you, so you know what they are capable of doing with your children and there is no way to explain it.
You teach your child to love both parents because that is the right thing to do. You put your child in therapy to help them cope with the divorce and more, really knowing that there is much more to it.